What do I LIKE about me?

I have a lot of thoughts spinning in my head.

I feel to some extent that I have lost who I am/was. I know for sure that we have lost and/or changed the way B and I relate to each other.

I also think part of that is my own self image.

I have not forgiven myself for my body letting the girls down.

My body has changed from their births as well.

I have never had a flat tummy. But I did have abdominal muscles under there. Now I feel they are gone.

I still can't laugh or sneeze too hard without being careful!

I carry a 20+ lb toddler with incomplete trunk control around and yet my arms are flabby.

I am physically exhausted and scheduled out.

I am tire of the same routine day after day.

I crave improvement for K but when it finally happens I am off to the next thing.

I think I have always been that way for myself. When I got the A in the class I went onto the next class without truly enjoying what I had done.

I need to find a way to enjoy myself and where I am now.

I managed K's safe arrival.

I nutured her potential.

I believed in her despite the experts.

I attend, arrange and research 99.9% of her appts, therapies, interventions.

I am a good mom.

But what about me as a person?

What about who I am?

Who am I now apart from K?

How do I nurture that while fulfilling my role as mom?

I am strong. I have faced a challenge physically and most definitely emotionally and am still functioning.

My body has seen changes and has adapted.

I have coped with pain and sorrow.

Who am I in light of all of this?

Who was I prior?